adapt.

Last year I chose the One Little word, "grow", and man, did I grow last year. I didn't keep up with one little world as a craft project, but I definitely kept up with it as a mantra, as an inspiration, and as guidance as the year progressed (see last year's posts + progress here). Grow will never not be a part of my life, so my hope for this project is that every year I will pick a new work that meshes with the others to continue to help me be the best version of myself. This year I am choosing the word ADAPT.I am choosing this word for a number of reasons. First, I made a lot of changes last year to help myself grow and to steer my life in the direction I wanted it to go. While I am proud of all of the choices I made and all of the things that I have accomplished, every day is a struggle to continue to modify parts of my life to fit into the new spaces I've created to better myself. I ended a failing relationship, but I sometimes struggle with being single and thinking about my future. I started a new career that I am so in love with, but the idea of failing at it or not measuring up to standards scares the absolute shit out of me. 2015 is going to be about adapting to the changes I have made, and will continue to make with bravery, a solid head on my shoulders, and most importantly, with love and joy for the things I am doing for myself.The other reason I chose this word is because I am normally someone who isn't a fan of change. I'm talking small scale "something got moved from one drawer to another and it's bugging me out", to the larger scale "I used to drive less than a mile to work and roll out of bed and now I commute every morning and have to worry about missing a train or if it's raining and I forget an umbrella". To some people, both of those types of changes might seem like no biggie (just anxiety, maybe?), or it's possible that one seems more intense than the other. Either way, change always scares me, sometimes annoys me, but mostly, of late, it wakes me up. I want to adapt this year to the changes I'm making enough to realize when one of the changes I've made is no longer working for me and it's time to wake up and start modifying again without being afraid or feeling like I failed at something. I'm excited to take this word with me all year, and continue to grow and adapt accordingly throughout this life that I've made for myself.

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One Little Word is a workshop run by Ali Edwards in which participants choose one word to focus on for an entire year. Read about Ali's OLW here, and see all of my related posts for OLW 2014 here, and 2015 posts here.